So, it’s 4 years already – feels strange, like looking at university photos and realising that it was a million years ago. Somehow, reading my weblog gives me two totally different feeling. One of progress – things change and grow; another one of standing still – core things are the same…
Anyway… It’s feels good to be back to blogging again. Last year was so much about unsettledness, changing and search for balance going in the background that writing faded away. I missed blogging – on some days proudly announcing to Robert in the evening that “I wrote a post”. But I also disconnected from it in a good sense – feeling liberated away from blogging, rediscovering independence from daily intake of information bits, from constant feeling of being in a conversation, from dependence on feedback to validate what I think and do…
Today, discussing some of my methodological struggles with a visiting professor I’ve heard once again “if you believe it should be like that just do it like that”. I’ve heard it so many times during my research, but today I looked at it differently – as far as I’m my own source of doubts the process of looking for confirmations from others will last endlessly.
The world is so multifaceted that there always be places of not fitting in, always a space for an improvement. If you write for a feedback there is always a chance of unhappy readers. Now I’m rediscovering in much broader context what I knew when I started blogging:
write where your heart is and the right audience will find you
do what you believe in and you will end up where you want to be
Simple. Sometimes it takes time to realise that the door is been open 🙂
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